Nick Kyrgios Has Opened Up About His Struggles With Substance Abuse And Depression

"I’m proud to say I’ve completely turned myself around and have a completely different outlook on everything, I don’t take one moment for granted."

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Aussie tennis star Nick Kyrgios has candidly spoken out about his battle with mental illness and substance abuse in a raw and emotional Instagram post.

The 26-year-old tennis star, who most recently won our hearts as part of the iconic Special K’s sporting duo, took to Instagram on Thursday to share his struggles.

“This was me 3 years ago at the Australian Open. Most would assume I was doing ok mentally or enjoying my life… it was one of my darkest periods,” he began the lengthy post.

“If you look closely, on my right arm you can see my self harm. I was having suicidal thoughts and was literally struggling to get out of bed, let alone play in front of millions. I was lonely, depressed, negative, abusing alcohol, drugs, pushed away family & friends.”

“I felt as if I couldn’t talk or trust anyone. This was a result of not opening up and refusing to lean on my loved ones and simply just push myself little by little to be positive. I know that day to day life can seem extremely exhausting, impossible at times. I understand that you feel if you open up it may make you feel weak, or scared,” said Kyrgios.

“I’m telling you right now, it’s OK, you are not alone. I’ve been through those times when it seemed as if those positive energetic vibes were never ever going to be reality. Please, don’t feel as if you are alone, if you feel as if you can’t talk to anyone, I’m here, reach out.”

At the time the picture was taken — back in 2019 — Kyrgios was regularly making headlines for his behaviour.

He was fined a staggering $167,000 at one point in mid-2019 or calling an umpire a “fucking tool” and breaking two rackets at the Cincinnati Masters tournament. But despite making headlines, Kyrgios did not speak publicly about his mental health battle at the time.

Kyrgios also noted that he has since been able to turn his life around and has a fresh outlook on life.

“I’m proud to say I’ve completely turned myself around and have a completely different outlook on everything, I don’t take one moment for granted. I want you to be able to reach your full potential and smile. This life is beautiful.”

Kyrgios’ Instagram post was praised by fellow tennis legend Dylan Alcott and The Bachelor star Brittany Hockley, among countless others.

The tennis legend recently made headlines after winning an unlikely doubles title at the Australian Open last month with Thanasi Kokkinakis.

If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal ideation or depression, you are not alone. Help is available. In an emergency, call 000.

Lifeline 13 11 14

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